Here is where you can find my poems, past and present!The poems I create from a life of heartbreak, bad decisions, and what I hope for in the future.

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Silver Moon 03/24/21

Dark hair draped down your neck,
Tickling your shoulders.
Hiding the radiance,
Echoing from your skin.

Eyes silver like the moon,
I’m frozen in them.
And they even sparkle,
Like light touching water.

You alone make me feel alive,
Amidst this life of darkness.
Hours wrapped in your arms,
Where I wanna spend my eternity.

In the dim twilight of night,
I desire to explore you.
Because when I look upon you,
I see a masterpiece.

Never knew a person,
Could be such a beautiful work of art.
Now I crave you,
And all the corners of your soul.

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Mystic Night 04/16/21

Mystic eyes look upon a night sky,
For such a beauty could be so entrapped.
She lies in bed awake for just I,
From a cool breeze that kept her wrapped.

To gaze upon such a beauty, 
From what lured me,
Was but her mesmerizing smile,
And I swept unto her heavenly eyes.

Heaven is a place most humans dream of,
Though I find it deep in her heart.
To know that I revel in a most gracious love,
Only hoping to never fall apart.

She’s unaware of how I feel,
But at night I dream of her soul,
And one day ours might be entwined,
To share a life together forever.

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Drug 10/26/20

She gets me high being in her presence.
The world slows as she passes by me.
Her touch is like ecstasy to my brain.
She has me addicted and breathless.

She whispers in my ear.
What was said hit me like cocaine.
As her lips dance upon my cheek.
She has me excited and lusting.

Bites her lip as she steps to me.
Her presence envelops around me.
Has me trembling and aroused.
She is the best addiction.

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Purity 10/27/20

Sun peaking atop mountains.

Moon glistens across water.

Fields dance in the breeze.

Rain falling across the sky.

As we sat there,
Smile radiant as mid-day summer.
Hair dancing in the wind,
Eyes sparkle like morning dew.

When I see her,
She is but a breathtaking view.
One of those beautiful paintings,
Natural and real.

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Dreaming 10/27/20

We locked eyes,
As if I had fell into her soul.
She left me with chills,
I was frozen, a statue in her presence.

When I sleep I hope to only dream of her
To fall into a slumber so dark,
She is my light, my guide
When I sleep I wish to feel her amongst me

We met many years ago
We’ve reconnected
And once our eyes met
It’s like the first time in her presence

When I sleep I hope it’s with her
To fall into slumber embraced
She is everything to me,
When I wake, it’s only her til death

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Love Is A Dead End 04/21/21

I thought it was about finding someone,
Who was like me.
I thought it was about being with someone,
Who can love me.

What it actually is,
Is a game you play with person after person.
What it feels like,
Is an endless journey of talk after talk.

I thought I’d found her,
But I don’t know right now.
I thought she’s perfect,
But I must not know anymore.

We share so many common interests,
Yet I feel lost.
We share so many conversations,
Yet I feel worthless.

One thing divides us,
It is but a number.
One thing that shouldn’t matter,
It is but a simplicity.

She is perfect to me,
I would love her no matter.
She is amazing to me,
I respect everything about her.

Love is pain,
To heartbreak.
Love is a road,
To a dead-end.

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Two Digits 04/21/21

A number
The only thing that separates us

Scares her
But not I

Is it judgement from others
I don’t know

Is it being ridiculed
I still wonder

My love is strong
And all for her

Thoughts every night
Before my slumber

Of her
All her own

Give us a chance
Then you will know

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To Every Her I Ever Met 04/21/21

It is apparent
That alone is my forevermore
My own solace
Embrace of only myself

For every splendor I discover
Is but a temporal moment
And usually seized
By actions of her

Her being every soul
I’ve come upon
Every her reveals similar truths
They toy with the heart

And disappear
When they’ve grown bored
It’s a game
To every her I’ve ever met

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Lies 04/23/21

You lost the trust,
The most important part.
You are not a friend,
How could you be?

You lied and betrayed.
That’s not what friends do.
You took the knife and drove it in,
Deceived for doing what you asked?

From a gash in my back.
Your actions bled me
Hurt me and fled.
But why?

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My End 04/23/21

Foreboding memories
Under a blood moon
Driven to madness
By feelings of worthlessness
Where my Gods wept
But the flame that burns
Within my soul is black
Unrelenting and fierce
Their tears cannot stop
The heat from consuming
Everything that thrives in me
My end is nigh
Happiness dwindles
Fleeting from my being
And soon the reaper
Will take me upon
The depths of darkness
So I will be forgotten
My exploits remembered
Will exist only here
In the words written

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I Dream Of You 04/27/21

For each moment in your presence
My heart trembles

Only in dreamscapes
May a more breathtaking being exist

The second our eyes met
My heart skipped a beat

Only in imagination
May a more intense moment exist

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Wanting 12/10/20

I want to be consumed by the essence of her soul,
And be entrapped forever.

I want to explore every inch of her body,
With my lips and fingertips.

I want our hearts to connect,
To be completely hers.

I want to give her all of my love,
In every way possible.

Two bodies, One soul.
Two hearts, One love.

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Masterpiece 12/14/20

She is but a masterpiece,
Created by a goddess.
No man could conjure such beauty,
A work of art painted by Freya.

I want to be wrapped in her embrace,
That’s the eternity I desire.
Forever entwined with her soul,
Connected to her every heartbeat.

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Three Years to Nowhere 04/30/21

You left me alone in tears,
After telling me nothing would break us.
Now you act like it was coming all along,
You left me alone like a hot mess.

You made three years feel like nothing,
After a house, a dog and a ton of memories.
Now in a few short moments it’s over,
You left me broken and shattered.

You were the one ready to settle down,
After years moving from place to place.
Now you’re walking out like it was as easy as coming in,
You left me me with feelings of worthlessness.

You had it all, love, support, honesty and respect,
After years of being happy and loved.
Now I’m giving you up and moving on,
You left, but I’ve prospered, you returned to your past, I moved forward.

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Lost In You 04/30/21

My path became predetermined,
The moment you walked into it.

I was just following stepping stones,
And now I know the path was to you.

Your heart is the guiding light,
Leading me to you, a beautiful castle.

Lost in your eyes as they look unto me,
Mesmerized by your smile as it graces me.

You are positively breathtaking,
Incredible and so lovely.

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Red Sun 06/08/21

When the Gods died
The masses cried

The red sun is nigh
Blood fell from the sky

Drenched was the ground
Screams created sound
Escape was not found
Death to be all around

The God’s were dead
The masses fell red

The red sun ended
Blood and bodies mended

The world was lost
Death was the cost
Souls became frost
Dying from the exhaust

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Papaw 06/13/21

Upon the ocean you were a service man
Lips singing of adventures experienced
Stories told at every family occasion
Memories to be forever cherished

Stubborn as a mule you always were
But look you raised several strong
Now you are over us watching
Be proud Papaw you built a large family

Growing up I reveled at your skill in the workshop
Many hours spent woodworking in sheds and basements
You created many works of art and toys for me
Thank you for loving me, Thank you for being there

Backroads and Backwoods
County Lines and City Signs
Porch Talks and Garden Walks
Westerns and Gospel Sundays

These are my memories of you
Oh and don’t forget blue jeans and a button down
And now Papaw your goodbye is due
A better place awaits your renown

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A Dance With Death 07/29/21

I’ve stood upon the precipice,

Awaiting was only death.

Though she left that night alone,

For even I was able to refuse her.

The cold grip was not enough,

A fire was lit unto me,

And I was freed.

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Echoes of a Past Life 07/29/21

My soul is filled
With echoes of your presence.

My heart is filled
With echoes of our past.

My mind is filled
With echoes of your voice.

My life is filled
With echoes of our memories.

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I Want 08/15/21

Dance with me across new horizons
Abound these fields we collide
Moments with you
I thrive.

To spin you around with hands joined
Our eyes lost in the others’
Moments with you
I crave.

Sway to rhythms of the winds breeze
Hold these motions in your soul
Moments with you
I desire.

Frolic and free yourself under this sun
Open thy heart with smiles bright
Moments with you
I love.

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I’m Not There 08/29/21

I’m dead in your eyes
You’re alive in mine

I’m nothing in your mind
You’re incredible in mine

I’m not present in your heart
You’re thriving in mine

I’m just another body in your presence
You’re meaningful in mine

I’m but a moment in your thoughts
You’re a lifetime in mine

I’m never in your dreams
You’re forever in mine

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Mom 08/29/21

You’ve have many trials & tribulations

The risk of your life having me
The ups & downs between us
The losses of family close

You’ve rescued me more times than I can count

She’s a book worm and an animal rescuer.
She’s a clean freak and a vegetarian.
She’s a dog mom and a beach lover.
She’s my mother and always my hero.

Thank you for loving me.
Thank you for raising me.
Thank you for helping me.
Thank you for everything.
Thank you for being my hero.

I love you always!

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Darling 11/29/21

I wish she was in bed cuddled,

Kissing me as I fall to slumber,

For now I can only hope that as I dream,

It’s you dancing across my mind,

Til i meet the beginning of her soul,

I will then dive in, embraced in all of you.

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The Past 12/17/21

the scars of your betrayal echoed within
my mind

the wounds of your actions devoured
my heart

the pain of your lies shattered
my soul

the loss of your love ended
my being

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Soul of Fire 12/21/21

Dead eyes
Broken sighs

Edge of life
Blood upon knife

Soul of fire
Wanting only desire

Sun dies
Night cries

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Poison 12/21/21

Stiring in my mind
Dreams of death
As life drifts apart
Poisoned by desire

My heart torn at each thread
Ripped from care
Disturbed I’ve become
Poisoned by loneliness

Black is this soul
Pain forged within
Corrupted and crude
Poisoned by love

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Radiant 01/30/22

Eyes glisten like tiger’s quartz

All is set straight with that smile

Skin radiantly glows as the sun touches

Long hair dances upon the air as you sway

Light beams from my being when I see you

I never want to let my eyes drift away from you

What I’d do if I could kiss you now and forever

I’m sure your lips are soft and sweet like sugar

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Intimacy 02/13/22

I want your hands exploring my chest
Feeling them caressing across back and forth

I want to lock my lips with yours
Feeling our tongues wrap and twirl around each other

I want your hot breath against my neck
Feeling the warmth of the air you exhale upon me

I want to feel your heart beating
Feeling your body pulling unto me as we collide

I want your hair tickling my body
Feeling it on my shoulders as we sway in motion

I want to sprinkle my kisses upon you
Feeling goosebumps arise across your sweet skin

I want your eyes glued to mine
Feeling power of desire and lust deep in them

I want to fall within your soul
Feeling love consume us both during this intimacy

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Eternal Love 04/03/22

I’d dance across a thousand moons

Just to have you notice me

Every lifetime I will find you

Wherever we end up

I promise I shall search

We were meant for only each other

Forever our souls will be entwined

An eternity of you and I

Our love will never diminish

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Alone 04/09/22

I’ve died a million times in my head

There’s more to come

Depression is like a cancer of the soul

It will follow me forever

Crying alone in the many dark rooms

The future will surely supply more

Loneliness infects always weakening the heart

Forever alone in my head

Falling and failing seems so inevitable

Never being enough breaks me

The struggles are becoming too much

I can’t hold it in much longer

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Romance 05/02/22

Only she and I existed

Amongst this existential plane

Embraced in this cold world

Her heart beat wildly

Mine matched in rhythm

Holding her head in my lap

Kissing her sweet lips

Caressing her body

All thoughts of craziness had left

In that moment we were meant to be

No questions, no answers

Just pure unbridled lust

Desires of wanting

Romance in each other’s arms

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Love & Doubt 05/03/22

In the pale moonlight

I regarded the beautiful lady laying next to me

Her doubts deadened by slumber

But as she wakes will they return?

Or will she give herself completely

To the love we previously pronounced

Our history of friendship

Will that diminish this new founding?

As I lay my thoughts stirred on this

We love each other

Knowing it’s a mutual agreement

Isn’t that enough?

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Scarlet Daisy 08/15/22

Her hair fiery scarlet

And skin peppered

Speaks volumes

Of her uniqueness 

And then realizing

As my hot breath 

Touches her skin

Kissing each freckle

There will not be

Anyone quite like her.

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Silence in Love 08/15/22

Love isn't always loud

Or shown in physical affirmation 

Nor expressed by speaking it

Love is complicated

It's a manifestation of feelings

Mixed all within our soul

It can be silent

Something that must be learned

Through trial and failure

Experience and chance

Most of all it must be felt

Resting in front of one another

Moments lost in each other's eyes

Silent love becomes powerful

Embrace it

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Fog 10/16/22

Upon each morning fog

A quiet ambience lingers

Such a gentle silence

How I wish this was more common


Yet this wild world 

Is all but silent

Surrounded by noise

Constant chaos is the common

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Stories In Our Eyes 10/19/22

The eyes tell us stories.

They show joy and pain.

Tales from our lives.

Bad, good and everything in between.


Your eyes show a deep pain,

Mixed with loss and heartache.

Joy does exist,

But damage is prominent.


The same exists in mine,

I'm sure of it.

Worthlessness and depression,

Haunts my past and present.


We are both beings daydreaming,

Watching life as we stare unto it.

Together we could share this pain,

And maybe overcome it.


I'll forever be here, 

If that's what you may desire?

I won't push you,

Just remember the promise I made.

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You Fucking Killed Me… (Part One) 11/10/22

You fucking killed me...


I can't trust anymore.

My heart won't open anymore,

At least not like it did for you.


I don't feel like I used to.

My mind struggles understanding,

Why you did what you did.


I haven't been as happy as I was. 

My soul was and is broken,

From how you abandoned it.


I won't ever recover from this.

My love shattered in pieces,

Because of your lies.


You fucking killed me...because you fucking deceived all I knew what love was and hoped it could be.

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You Fucking Killed Me… (Part Two) 11/10/22

You fucking killed me...


I would have burnt the world for you. 

Or explored every corner,

Relished you upon every foothold. 


You were every dream I had.

A relic to be worshipped,

And the person I gave all to.


Years later and I'm still healing.

I died hearing the words,

That uttered you being done.


My pain runs deep. 

Not knowing if I'll feel warmth again, 

Though I really am trying.


Love is the hardest trial in life and even the person you give all to, may still leave. There's no easy way to heal and no time frame of healing.

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No One Listens Anymore 02/14/23

Why use words?
When no one listens...

Words spoken
But always broken

Each day, same routine
Every lie, a guillotine

Promises are made
Actions then forbade

Time passes by
Memories left to die

Actions not taken
Bonds become forsaken

What words must be told? 
When no one is there...

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Suicide By Loneliness 02/21/23

The day I die
Will be on a happy one
Not by a freak accident
But of my own hands

You'll never know it was coming
All I hope is that
It's a day I'm actually not alone 
Surrounded by my loved ones

I can't keep begging for attention
All I want is for someone to show up
Randomly, not me asking, just them
Proving it's a real friendship 

Words through a screen don't help
Promises digital won't erase
The emptiness in me
Actions physical are my proof

Just remember I wrote this promise
Y'all are great at reading problems
So maybe read this and show up
Cause if not, I'm dead

The blame isn't yours
The day I die 
Will be my decision 
One where I'm not alone.

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You 03/23/23

For you,
I'd burn the world.
Or we would explore every corner.

You, you, you,
Life could be more enjoyable.
Though you and I must find each other.

It's all about you,
Forever us sounds so good. 
Memories to be made and eternalized.

You plus I, 
Partners in all things.
Supporting each other in life.

You complete me,
Soulmates through and through.
A legacy built that lasts ages.

You,
I'm waiting, yet also searching.
Every lifetime, I will look for you.

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